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Feeling Homeless Again

I moved to Daegu just over 8 months ago.  I came from a small town in Florida where my parents were living.  It never really felt like it would be my permanent home, but I knew the area well.  My parents grew up there, I visited my grandparents there all my life, and I still had other family there so it did feel comfortable to be there.  To me home was always Texas.  That is where I grew up and where I lived most of my adult life.  For the past 2 years I have felt like a man without a home (which is why my original blog was titled A Man Nowhere – that and I love the Beatles song Nowhere Man).  However, even though I felt I didn’t have a permanent place to call home, I felt at home in Florida.  Now things have changed and I feel again like I have no place to call home.

You see my parents sold their house and are moving.

I knew this was a possibility, but really didn’t expect it to happen this soon.  I am really happy for them because I know it’s what they wanted for some time now.  They will be closer to some of the grandkids which is always a plus.  I think they are really going to like where they are going in Tennessee, but it’s a strange feeling for me.  Now don’t get me wrong I don’t want to live the rest of my life with my parents.  But being overseas and doing what I am doing now, I know there will come a time when I might be home for a few months while I am waiting on that next contract.  To not be able to go somewhere familiar is just a strange feeling.  I don’t view it as a bad thing, but I don’t think I have gotten my head around it all yet.

I really like the feeling of being overseas working and traveling, and I know I am not ready to give it up just yet.  Having that familiar place to go back home to for a short time while I get things worked out for my next contract was always a comforting thought in the back of my mind.  Now it’s gone.

It’s not something I will lose sleep over, and maybe it was just the initial shock which might wear down in the long run.  There is an element of excitement knowing I have the chance to go somewhere new when I go home, but I am also going to miss parts of the area they are leaving.  Maybe it’s all the different emotions and the loss of the familiar combined that give it such a weird feeling.

I honestly don’t know if anyone can even understand what I am talking about either.  If anyone out there has been in this situation or even can understand what my rambling means, please let me know.  It would be comforting knowing I am not the only one out there.

About Eric Bynum
I taught ESL for three years in South Korea and now I am looking to set out on a new journey after just finishing my teaching certification in the US. I hope to continue teaching and traveling and you can follow his journeys here.

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4 Responses to “Feeling Homeless Again”

  1. Mom says:

    you won’t miss anything here, Eric.

  2. Danielle says:

    My parents did the same thing, but they moved back to a city where we lived through part of my youth. When people ask, I call Florida home, because I went to HS, Uni, and Grad School there. But, my family is spread out, so I really feel like I have more than one home…

  3. admin says:

    It’s not that I will miss anything. It’s that now there is really nothing familiar to go home to which is just a strange feeling.

  4. admin says:

    I always say Texas is my home even though I haven’t lived there for over 2 years. It was where I grew up and will always be home to me. My family used to be even more spread out but now it seems slowly everyone is getting closer, except me.


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